10 months ago
"I’m not happy about it, but I am happy that there’s someone else doing that job for me and better yet. They’re better at it then I ever will be."
I can’t sleep because my mind is congested with thoughts and my whiteboard just doesn’t cut it for untangling ideas anymore. So I’m back here, sue me.
I had a very emotional and thought provoking conversation with a workmate last week and the words that came out of his mouth are still ringing through my mind, no matter what I do I can’t get rid of them.
We were on the topic about his ex-girlfriend because she had added him again on a social networking site, as usual with males you’d expect him to start raving on about how he hates her, how useless she is and what not, But no. Not this man. He has a heart of gold.
He begins speaking of how happy he is for her. It’s been 4 years, she’s with another man now. They’re married, she’s about to have her first son. He had the absolute most genuine smile on his face, so I asked him. “Really? You don’t feel sad at all?”
He replies with “Of course I feel sad. She was my first love.”
He then continues to talk about how he’d love to be the one to care for her, to worry for her, to provide for her; But that’s not his job anymore and she has found somebody more capable to provide for her. Someone who can do the job better than he ever could.
We were on this topic for a good hour and I’d be a liar if I said I wasn’t holding tears back. Listening to somebody say something so honest and heartwarming knowing well and truly that not a single shred of it is some bullshit written by some jerk in hollywood that gets paid to exaggerate.
It really makes you realise all bullshit no matter how dirty is it, comes from somewhere genuine.